with malice

how i wish i can go on day-off, i still have a flex sched to finish, and i don't have enough moolah to spend on thursday at enchanted kingdom for our team building... that trash is not sending financial support on time, and it's so dang hard to budget nothing!!!

i worked so hard.... as if i do not deserve to rest!!!! he's so selfish...

anyway enough about trash....

i'm with my crush at work *yuk, and to think i'm already 29 and i still have crushes and kilig feelings yuk!!!!*

i'm just thinking about him with him at the beach just resting out on the shores wearing cotton shirts and shorts. i'm thinking about relaxing on the sunshine and sleeping at night on a nipa hut.... hearing the winds outside, the cool midnight breeze and the calmness of the sea....
and there he is.... he's with me

wearing only shorts, walking towards me, smilling..... and then we'll make love....that same place...

ain't that a night to remember????!!!
it's so romantic!!!!

it's just a thought, no harm done.... one fantasy.... with him....

for mommy.....

my mommy and i were never cool friends when i was a teenager, we're super enemies like there wasn't a day nor a topic that we'd agreed upon our views and philosophies are so different... but when i married and become a mom myself i changed and become so close with mommy, i understood everything, gave her more respect and love, she loved us most especially my kids, days filled with love from my mom, mommy is the bestest friend i could ever had, she had a highblood pressure right now, we dont want to lose her not right now... hope that the lord will let us spent more time with mommy, for all it's worth my lord, for all it's worth....

thought he was in love....

i thought he was in love with me, he gave me reasons to believe that we can fix the relationship and work things out... i just found out he's telling negative things about me and how i take care of our kids... i felt so hurt and so frustrated.... now i realized that i'm just wasting my time being a trash can... making my life a garbage by letting a shit ruined my life.....i'm not as bad as he is as well as his stupid bitch from a rich family...

although i'm earning enough for me and my kids to survive.... we're happy without him.... at least, it is clear that he's a no good jerk.... a garbage who just thinks about himself.... i hate him so much...... so much...

stupid!!!!

my husband called and i just hate him so much ****hate you***, a philanderer, insesitive shit....
just never learned from his mistakes... likes hurting other people's feelings.... he's like that....
thought that he'll be sorry for hurting me and our kids but he gets away with lies and by his stupid mistress...
i hate her and wished them karma... hate these people....