It's been a hard days night..... again....

It's so hard working for somebody who doesn't really trust you that much...
It's so hard to work with a heavy load in your heart, I keep telling myself that I can make it, becomee somebody in my chosen career but, I'm not as good as they are.... no. that's negative.... don't be too negative, it'll affect your work...

And they'll be happy when you're gone.... And if that happens, you needed fallback...
so i'll start looking for other companies that can help get to a better start... di ba? kaya ko naman kaso hindi ko lang gusto yung humahawak sa akin, kailan kaya ako malilipat sa ibang team? baka kasi mabago ang kapalaran ko e.

HUng-up

i KEEP ON GETTING HUNG-UP'S TODAY, IT'S A SUNDAY AND WORKING AT A CALL CENTER HERE IN MANILA IS SOMETHING. AND NINO IS TEASING ME RIGHT NOW. I SENT TOO MANY EMAILS TO GUNA, I DONT WANT TO GIVE HIM THE IMPRESSION THAT I'M AN EAGER PUPPY. BUT I AM ANYWAY....

I JUST HOPE THAT HE'LL LIKE MY MESSAGES...

My secret love....

souhait nous pourrions être plus que des amis. mais je sais que c'est où notre amitié doit finir. je souhaite votre bonheur, je souhaite que j'aie été celui qui pourrait vous donner cela.
wish we could be more than friends. but i know this is where our friendship must end.i wish for your happiness, i wish i was the one who could give you that.

les temps merveilleux nous avons dépensé ensemble, ce que nous avons pensé à la vie, votre culture, votre sourire, quand vous faites vos mouvements plus idiots, il m'incite à vouloir vous vouloir, mais je biseaute

you serve as my inspiration everyday, the wonderful times we spent together, what we thought about life, your culture, your smile, when you do your silliest moves, it makes me want to want you, but i cant

Comment vous souriez des marques je frisson avec crainte que je pourrais tomber pour vous tellement profondément, Je pourrais me noyer. votre parfum s'attardera à l'intérieur de moi pour toujours, vous êtes celui, le droit pour moi mais lui est trop tardif pour celui, nous avons le monde différent à vivre, différentes familles à garder, et il me blesse sachant que nous sommes celui qui devrait être ensemble

How you smile makes me shiver with fear that I might fall for you so deep, I might drown myself. your scent will linger inside of me forever, you are the one, the right one for me but it's too late for that, we have different world's to live, different families to keep, and it hurts me knowing we are the one who should be together

mais pourquoi la pente il soit les deux de nous, seulement amis

but why cant it be the two of us, only friends

Suspicious Minds
(Mark James)

We're caught in a trap
I can't walk out
Because I love you too much baby
Why can't you see
What you're doing to me
When you don't believe a word I say?

We can't go on together
With suspicious minds
And we can't build our dreams
On suspicious minds

So, if an old friend I know
Drops by to say hello
Would I still see
suspicion in your eyes?

Here we go again
Asking where I've been
You can't see these tears are real
I'm crying

We can't go on together
With suspicious minds
And we can't build our dreams
On suspicious minds
Oh let our love survive
Or dry the tears from your eyes
Let's don't let a good thing die
When honey, you know
I've never lied to you
Mmm yeah, yeah

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This song is a wonderful description of my relationship with my husband...Oh, my gosh!
hormones!!! My hormones are kinda' abnormal today, i emailed him just to let him know i've been to Vietnam, I know he's proud of me.....

God, how I wish I had someone to call my own now.... i need him badly.... nobody knows how hard it is to be this lonely.

mother's day pa naman

I miss bel but hanggang dito na lang ito sa isip ko,
on my mind,
i can love him freely,
see what i want to see
imagine what i can imagine,
it will always be him.

how i wish he can feel the same for meeeh,
unfortunately he doesnt that's why
i just play my visions inside my naive mind.

I've let go but on my mind,
we have a beautiful relationship.

hindi kaya maging psycho na ako sa mga pinagagagawa ko?
Oh...., when will this yearning ends?,

buti pa sya may iba na,
he moved on, leaving me and my kids ng ganito.....
kami hirap, lost.
sana marinig na ng langit ang daing naming mag-iina....
sana....

Family Day.....

I volunteered for our family day affair here at work.... so excited to see so many people, tl chie gave me an ultimatum to perform tom pass my stata, otherwise she'll give me a c.a. and then termination. I just dont care anymore.... hindi naman nya ako talaga tinulungan in the first place, alam ko na dapat sarili kong asikasuhin ko pero, i just don't know kung sya ang dahilan kung bakit hindi ako makausad sa work.... hhhhhhhaaaaayyyyy......

I miss Guna..... wish he was here so that I can tell my problems....

hung-up......

new beginnings
beachin' out! -- i just wanna be normal....
May 2, '06 3:35 AMfor everyone

"Unwritten"I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefinedI'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplannedStaring at the blank page before youOpen up the dirty windowLet the sun illuminate the words that you could not findReaching for something in the distanceSo close you can almost taste itRelease your inhibitionsFeel the rain on your skinNo one else can feel it for youOnly you can let it inNo one else, no one elseCan speak the words on your lipsDrench yourself in words unspokenLive your life with arms wide openToday is where your book beginsThe rest is still unwrittenOh, oh, ohI break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the linesWe've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that wayStaring at the blank page before youOpen up the dirty windowLet the sun illuminate the words that you could not findReaching for something in the distanceSo close you can almost taste itRelease your inhibitionsFeel the rain on your skinNo one else can feel it for youOnly you can let it inNo one else, no one elseCan speak the words on your lipsDrench yourself in words unspokenLive your life with arms wide openToday is where your book beginsFeel the rain on your skinNo one else can feel it for youOnly you can let it inNo one else, no one elseCan speak the words on your lipsDrench yourself in words unspokenLive your life with arms wide openToday is where your book beginsThe rest is still unwrittenStaring at the blank page before youOpen up the dirty windowLet the sun illuminate the words that you could not findReaching for something in the distanceSo close you can almost taste itRelease your inhibitionsFeel the rain on your skinNo one else can feel it for youOnly you can let it inNo one else, no one elseCan speak the words on your lipsDrench yourself in words unspokenLive your life with arms wide openToday is where your book beginsFeel the rain on your skinNo one else can feel it for youOnly you can let it inNo one else, no one elseCan speak the words on your lipsDrench yourself in words unspokenLive your life with arms wide openToday is where your book beginsThe rest is still unwrittenThe rest is still unwrittenThe rest is still unwrittenOh, yeah, yeah