new beginnings 2...

I was in the brink of giving-up, so frustrated I cried for 2 days...

How would you explain to a 7 year-old child that you can't give her the birthday party that she had planned, coz her dad never gave any child support to help me about our household expenses???

It's so sickenning to realize that life has it's up and downs but this is just too much, too much I tell you...

Everyday you try to stand up to prove to yourself that you can make it without him
for you to prove to yourself that there is life after the break-up but....

why is this never-ending journey... a never-ending problem....

I was thinking, can I just learn to do wierd stuff like study voodoo or witchcraft and just hurt him??? I don't have money to sue him, I dont have money to follow him, even if have money I wont waste it of course...

yes I am moving on but you see, what I am trying to say is that these things, these frustations are part of this whole thing something....yes?

but then again there are things that makes me feel really frustrated like bel's promises to our kid that he had broken...he's just giving our daughter the message that even a 7 year-old child cannot trust him and his words right? And I hate to see my kid so dissapponted!

What am I to do? I've got a hand full of things too, financially speaking so if he's not helping out who am I going to turn to? this is really insane...